My Grandfather’s Tallit
When I close my eyes to picture my grandfather, he is standing beside a long olive green bookcase, swaying and shokeling, his slight frame enfolded within his tallit, tefillin protruding from his forehead and wrapped about his arm, deeply engaged in conversation with God. At those moments, it always seemed that he had been transported to a different place and time. Perhaps it was that magic cape, I thought, the one with the strings attached. As a little girl, I yearned to wear a tallit, and so it is no surprise that some of my fondest childhood memories are of sitting with my grandfather in shul on Shabbat and sharing his tallit. Throughout the service, I would play with the tzitzit, enjoying the feel of the fringes as they slipped between my fingers, methodically adding new knots and removing them again before the conclusion of the service, each knot a blessing for myself or my family. My grandfather was a humble man, dedicated to his store, his family, and his God. He embodied a love for education and humanity. I knew that those cornerstones of his existence were somehow bound up within those carefully constructed knots.
It was not until some years after my grandfather’s death that I learned the third paragraph of the Shema, recited twice each day, morning and evening, and found in this week’s Parashah Shelah–lekha, commanding us to wear the tzitzit.
Adonai said to Moses as follows: Speak to the people of Israel and
tell them to make for themselves fringes, tzitzit, on the corners of
their garments throughout their generations; let them attach a cord of
blue to the fringe at each corner. That shall be your fringe; look at it
and recall all of Adonai’s commandments and observe them so that
you do not follow your heart and eyes and be seduced or led astray.
Thus you shall be reminded to observe all My commandments and to
be holy to your God. I, Adonai, am your God, who brought you out of
the land of Egypt to be your God: I, Adonai your God (Numbers 15:37–41).
God is clear, the tzitzit are not an adornment set aside for special occasions. They are a necessary part of our daily existence throughout time. Designed to help us remember, to keep us connected, the tzitzitchallenge us to actively engage in our story as Jews so that we might become holy. One of the first steps towards that sense of kedusha, holiness, is a willingness to set ourselves apart, to distinguish ourselves as Jews. In the most obvious way, the tallit is an external sign of our place within a larger history. It is a marker of our commitment as individuals to the needs of our community. Each morning, as we recite the bracha which introduces the Shema, we physically gather the tzitzit from the four corners of our tallit, demonstrating our hope that God bring us in peace, safety, and wholeness from the four corners of the earth, and lead us with uprightness, and dignity, to our land. Here, we not only articulate our prayers for the future, we engage with our symbols, reminding us of our role in reaching out to others, in defining the boundaries of community, and in moving forward with respect for ourselves as individuals and as a people. While our knowledge and level of practice may differ, the tallit reminds us of the potential within each of us to connect to a past that can strengthen our sense of self within a larger history.
By utilizing the tzitzit, either intentionally, as has become the custom for morning recitation of the Shema, or for meditation throughout the service, they become an educational tool, integrating thought and action. They are the means by which we demonstrate our commitment to the mitzvot. We don’t merely think about the tzitzit, God instructs us to look at them, to examine their composition, to remember God’s mitzvot, and to do them. With regard to this verse, our rabbis tell us, “Seeing leads to remembering, remembering to doing” (TB Menahot, 43b). The tallit calls us to attention. It is a physical reminder of our responsibilities and our commitments, a signal of the actions incumbent upon us as Jews (TB Menahot, 43b).
Perhaps that is why we must wear the tallit, placing the tzitzit on our person, making them part of our identity, using them to define who we are, for ourselves, and for those around us. In the bracha designated for putting on the tallit, we acknowledge the opportunity given by God to create holiness in our lives, with the attending responsibility and expectation that we will wrap ourselves in the mitzvot.
No wonder the rabbis held that the mitzvah of tzitzit is equally important as the commandments. By enclosing ourselves in the tallit, we are making a statement that we have, or are in search of, a relationship with God. As one of my former students wrote, “Wearing a tallit is a way to set myself apart from distractions and focus on my time with God. When I put on my tallit, I feel as if I am in a separate place surrounded by the presence of God. It makes my time in prayer more intimate … and gives me a feeling of protection and the embrace of God.” A sign of safety and a symbol of God’s presence, the tallit reminds us that struggle with and adherence to the commandments is an expression of our evolving conversation and dialogue with God –a dialogue that, in turn, enhances both our world and our place in the world.
It is our responsibility to that world that helps explain the meaning of these verses within the context of this week’s parashah. The sedra opens with instructions to the twelve spies, leaders in the community, “la–tur et ha’aretz,” to check out, spy, or tour the land. The men return after visiting a land flowing with milk and honey. Ten of the spies then share their fear and determination that the people of the land, who are giants, mitigate the success of future missions. The spies are presented as fulfilling their assignment; they spied out the land. Observers, tourists, they returned with snapshots and souvenirs, photos for their albums, but no confidence in their ability to take ownership of that space, no commitment to making a future in that land.
At the conclusion of the parashah, we are commanded to look at the tzitzit, and to remember and observe God’s commandments, “v’lo ta–tu–ru,” so as not to become tourists, passively engaged in Jewish life. Rashi reminds us that the heart and the eyes are the body’s spies (Numbers 15:39). We constantly scout out our surroundings, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. When faced with challenges, it is tempting to ignore the potential the future holds, falling back instead, on what is comfortable and familiar, and focusing on the fear of the unknown. It is up to us to use the tzitzit to point us in the direction of the future. In one Talmudic discussion, our rabbis teach that all Jews are obligated to fulfill the mitzvah of tzitzitincluding those who have chosen Judaism, women, household workers, etc. (TB Menahot 43a). From this perspective, tzitzit become a symbol of community participation. In addition, a mathematical rendering of the word tzitzit reveals the number 613, making the fringes a visual reminder of the mitzvot. This suggests that one who dons a tallit proclaims, “I am a Jew. I understand and embrace the values and traditions of our people and commit to carrying those blessings with me as I move forward in life.”
The tallit encourages us to involve ourselves in Jewish life through every action – seeing, feeling, and doing. The tzitzit provide the means for us to face our world as participants, setting an example, making a difference, and becoming part of our history.
Shabbat Shalom.
Rabbi Lisa Gelber
